Hard Times

Hi everyone. I wanted to thank everyone for their super sweet comments on my last piece. Kind words from one's peers always mean a lot.

I know I keep saying I will catch up on your blogs, and I don't.  Please know my intentions are pure and honest.  It is just one of those times in everyone's life where everything seems to come up at you at once. I am strong and can handle what ever life throws at me; however, every once in a while I get knocked off my feet and need a hand up. I have wonderful people in my life that provide me with strength when I can't find my own. And I am forever grateful for them.

I do believe I will be fine. I believe that with all my heart, but until I actual get a all clear from my doctor, there will always be that underlying fear. Unfortunately these things take time. It would be so nice to be able to just take every test needed all in one day, but it doesn't work that way. It's take a test, wait a week, take another type of test. And so on so on, until it drags out from weeks to months. On top of all that I had to put to sleep Trouble (my chocolate lab of 14 years) yesterday. This is the 4th member of my animal family this year that has passed on from this world. My heart is broken from the loss of my furry babies.  Trouble had been with me the longest of all my pets. She has made 5 moves with me, lived in apartments, houses, and condo's. She has been her namesake, trouble for sure, but she has always been loyal, loving, and protective of me. She has had dementia for a year now, and it has gotten increasingly worse as time has moved on. She kept us all up at night, barking and pacing and basically being out of her puppy mind. She lost her hearing, and began having painful arthritis bouts. And just this week she could no longer hold her bladder. She would wet herself and cry. It was hard to make the decision, but I know myself I would not want to live like that, so we made the hardest decision, and helped her to move on.

So that is what is happening with me. As I said I know I will be fine, but I will also feel much better one I've gotten confirmation of that from my doctor. Which will take some more time.

Have a beautiful day everyone :)